Sunday, May 15, 2011

Decision time

I have been so stressed out lately regarding money and finding a place to live so we could have another baby asap, so I could have my surgery asap (because I wanted an abdominal flap recon) - The other day I had an epiphany. I need to have implants in order to get what i want in life. If i just shut up and get implants, I can have the surgery asap, and still be able to have kids afterwards. If i went with the AFR then I wouldnt be able to have kids after.

I was being so selfish, not thinking of others. I thought poor me, i have this gene and i want what i want (recon wise) and theres nothing more to say about the matter. I have slowly realised that I cant have what I want, its just not viable, and i have to think of my family as well in this.

So next month, when i see the surgeon again (or before if my biopsy results are bad) I will tell him I have changed my mind - I actually feel so much better making this decision, like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders :)
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  1. AnonymousMay 15, 2011 at 9:45 PM

    I'm glad the weight is off your shoulders, but that sucks that you can't have it go the way you wanted :(
    I'm glad you were able to think of a compromise though and I hope you're a lot less stressed!! Stress is tex sux
    /hugs
    <3 Kamiki

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  2. AnonymousMay 15, 2011 at 9:51 PM

    I think if you feel a weight has been lifted then you have made the right decision.

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  3. EmMay 15, 2011 at 10:08 PM

    Good for you hun! I believe you are making the best possible decision for yourself and your family ;)

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