So I got a letter saying my surgery is booked for the 11th June.
11th of June came. I went to the hospital early as I was first on the surgical list. Got dressed in my schmexy gown and stockings and went into surgery.
The next week was a blur......
I remember waking up and feeling bloody sore. I dare not look down, I was too scared......
I wrote a few things and took pics whilst I was in hospital. And because I can't remember anything, I'm using these writings and pics as my memory - if that makes sense hehe!
Here are the writings and pics from the few weeks after my mastectomy (these are copy pasted, so the spelling is exactly how it was written)....
A muffin I got while I was in hospital. Looks like a mutilated boobie LOL
Note I wrote while in hospital. The nose on the right hand side was written on the 20th June. I can hardly read it myself - I was so sick and delirious - could hardly write!
Some gifts I was given from the lovely Ceara and Bex at La Donna Moderna - You guys are so amazing, I can't thank you and the companies/people who donated these awesome things enough. I'm still smiling over this care package, even months after you gave it to me!!
And finally - I previously had a pink ribbon tattoo on my neck. Now that my risk of breast cancer has plummeted, I decided to put butterfly wings on it. I believe that this experience has made me morph into a beautiful, strong butterfly. Its been so very hard and I was so close to carking it, but i'm taking the lessons i've learnt about life and i'm running with them.....
Next surgery to put the expander back in the right side and commence inflation is booked for early 2014 - i'm already on the waiting list.
11th of June came. I went to the hospital early as I was first on the surgical list. Got dressed in my schmexy gown and stockings and went into surgery.
The next week was a blur......
I remember waking up and feeling bloody sore. I dare not look down, I was too scared......
I wrote a few things and took pics whilst I was in hospital. And because I can't remember anything, I'm using these writings and pics as my memory - if that makes sense hehe!
Here are the writings and pics from the few weeks after my mastectomy (these are copy pasted, so the spelling is exactly how it was written)....
19th June 2013
I just thought I'd write wee something (that I will elaborate on when I can). Anyway, yesterday my lovely mummy was concerned about the pain i was having, my temperature and how red the area around my right surgical site was. So she rushed me to auckland city hospital emergency dept, much to my disgust. ...
I was taken ro APU where I made myself as comfortable as i possibly could. I got xrays, ultra sound and 3 drip bags into me.
I thought I had my pain under control - I went to the bathroom for the 6th time in a few hours - when I went to walk back I got extremely dizzy and fell down. A nurse helped me to my bed and decided to take some obs. My blood pressure was fine, my heart rate was fast and my temperature was 38.5.
They transferred me to a monitoring room. From there things went downhill. My temperature eventually went up to 41 degrees and by that time I was crying and distressed, I could see birds walking around and flying in the room. I was so hot that I was practically naked with a fan on me to try and bring my temp down.
I asked my nurse this morning what jad happened last night and all she said was 'you were this ( ) close to dying.
I nearly died last night.
What the actual fuck!
If I didn't go with mum yesterday morning and left it till today to come in - I woildve died on the way to the hospital....
EDIT: Today I had more surgery to remove the right expander - along with all the infection and pus (the expander was drowning in pus- sorry its gross).
I now feel a lot better - still sore but no pain as such and my head is actually clear and im not hallucinating or anything anymore. My temp is back to normal too. I will be in hosp till approx Tuesday next week, so if you would like to visit let me know!
A muffin I got while I was in hospital. Looks like a mutilated boobie LOL
Note I wrote while in hospital. The nose on the right hand side was written on the 20th June. I can hardly read it myself - I was so sick and delirious - could hardly write!
Some gifts I was given from the lovely Ceara and Bex at La Donna Moderna - You guys are so amazing, I can't thank you and the companies/people who donated these awesome things enough. I'm still smiling over this care package, even months after you gave it to me!!
And finally - I previously had a pink ribbon tattoo on my neck. Now that my risk of breast cancer has plummeted, I decided to put butterfly wings on it. I believe that this experience has made me morph into a beautiful, strong butterfly. Its been so very hard and I was so close to carking it, but i'm taking the lessons i've learnt about life and i'm running with them.....
Next surgery to put the expander back in the right side and commence inflation is booked for early 2014 - i'm already on the waiting list.